He pays debts that I owe…

Sorry, i have been a bad blogger.

So, I have been reading a book recently on praise and worship(which has been excellent), and over the past few days i have been spending some time in Psalm 103 and I feel like the Lord has been teaching me quite a few things out of this passage. For starters this particular text is one of King David’s psalm’s, one of the things I have noticed about his writing is that he always seemed to have an inner dialogue going on within himself.Particularly that he would actually talk to himself…that is speak to his own soul. let me back up a bit for a minute… one of the things that i have seemed to continually come into contact with, in a very wide range of the body of Christ is that for many people there seems to be a lack of enthusiasm concerning Christ himself and his word, now let me set this straight, this is not meant to be an attack on people or a judgment, merely an observation. Whether it is someone’s inability to connect in worship, or their reluctance to even speak about God publicly, a large part of the body seems generally disinterested in actually talking about God and His marvelous deeds. I have however noticed that we can be extremely motivated and passionate about all of the other things around us, whether it is the music we listen to, the show we are DIE HARD to get home and watch, or the many other things in life(work, friends,family hobbies,etc.) Beloved this is all out of whack, and i too find myself in those places where I am raving for days about some minor thing but at the end of the day i realize that I have not even spoken to my Father in heaven.

So back to David in the beginning of this text you will find that He is actually speaking TO his own soul, he is giving out the orders! v1 Bless the Lord, O my soul; And all that is within me, bless His holy name. You know, I really don’t think that in ALL of David’s life that he felt all gushy and comfy in the presence of God. Not when he was king of an rebellious nation and had people after his head right and left!  And that is where I feel like God has been speaking to me and I hope this can be an encouragement to you. The word says that the spirit is willing to praise God! BUT! the flesh is weak and will draw us away from Him. As I am beginning to learn praise, in it’s nature is an outward act (singing,speaking,shouting,dancing,the raising up of our hands) Beloved this is OUR responsibility! The Father will not force us…

As I was having a phone conversation with a close friend of mine today, I was sharing some of the latter parts of the text that i felt God was opening up to me…And the whole reason that they opened up to me was that I said to the Lord, “Abba I cannot feel you right now, but you are STILL worthy of my praise” and as I was having this conversation after that time I began to share with Him from v10 He has not dealt with us according to our sins, nor rewarded us according to our iniquities.

As i lay in bed last night i thought back on the events leading up to my salvation, and that experience as well. I thought about many times that have transpired since those days, and times that i have been in blatant rebellion against Him. I thought about my laziness in responding to Him who has been the faithful lover of my soul in all of those times. And it really hit me “WOW” i thought ” this IS good news” He really has not given me what I deserve(which is judgment!) I was the one who deserved to die! over and over again! And let me tell you beloved THAT carried me into a place of worship! Not some place of religious duty…  MY HEART FELT ALIVE!

And so i think that is why intimacy is so difficult for people, we need to give our soul a good smack upside the head and say “LOOK” and when we return to the reality of the cross and our heart comes alive, then we can dare to believe  that if he endured that then he might actually enjoy us, and if he enjoys us then certainly he must want to let us feel that enjoyment!

And that is what happens when we stop and take the time to grab hold of the reality that ” He pays debts that I owe”

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