Wounded by love…

Seeing this image captured my heart tonight…
I remember a short time after God had radically changed my life, there were so many times I was desperate for Him, desperate for His touch in a very real way. I remember feeling this way, I remember the way that God met me when I needed Him so badly, and the reality is is that I wanted Him so badly. There were times when His presence fell upon me and I wasn’t even expecting it…

And now I look around me and I wonder where that desperation went? I wonder where that level of desire in my heart has fled to? Not just in my own heart, but in the hearts of those who are around me as well.

Beloved, Our Father is after the deepest parts of our heart, our God is searching to and fro about the earth to find a people to give to His Son as an eternal inheritance. The Song of songs prophetically refers to his bride as being “lovesick for her beloved” I can only truthfully speak for myself but I am beginning to become deeply troubled in my spirit that there is this lack of desperation and longing for Him in me and around me. We just were NOT meant to live this way!
God is worthy of a people that seek him with a reckless abandonment in their hearts and nothing less! And I thank God that He has given me this discomfort as a safety mechanism to preserve my heart that it may flourish into mature love for Him.

I want to weep at His feet again…I actually want to FEEL His affection for me, not just read it in a book or hear it from someone’s mouth again. I wanna be acquainted with the true fear of the Lord, to learn what it really means to tremble before the presence of a Holy God. I cannot afford to live any other way any longer…It’s what He died for…

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