Wounded by love…

Seeing this image captured my heart tonight…
I remember a short time after God had radically changed my life, there were so many times I was desperate for Him, desperate for His touch in a very real way. I remember feeling this way, I remember the way that God met me when I needed Him so badly, and the reality is is that I wanted Him so badly. There were times when His presence fell upon me and I wasn’t even expecting it…

And now I look around me and I wonder where that desperation went? I wonder where that level of desire in my heart has fled to? Not just in my own heart, but in the hearts of those who are around me as well.

Beloved, Our Father is after the deepest parts of our heart, our God is searching to and fro about the earth to find a people to give to His Son as an eternal inheritance. The Song of songs prophetically refers to his bride as being “lovesick for her beloved” I can only truthfully speak for myself but I am beginning to become deeply troubled in my spirit that there is this lack of desperation and longing for Him in me and around me. We just were NOT meant to live this way!
God is worthy of a people that seek him with a reckless abandonment in their hearts and nothing less! And I thank God that He has given me this discomfort as a safety mechanism to preserve my heart that it may flourish into mature love for Him.

I want to weep at His feet again…I actually want to FEEL His affection for me, not just read it in a book or hear it from someone’s mouth again. I wanna be acquainted with the true fear of the Lord, to learn what it really means to tremble before the presence of a Holy God. I cannot afford to live any other way any longer…It’s what He died for…

Love came down…

I have been thinking about the great commandment, from Deut: 6 Love the Lord with all you heart, mind ,soul and strength. And as I began to meditate on that, I started to wonder how we are supposed to love Him with all of our strength? Are we supposed to grit our teeth and then “BANG” it is finished? And so more and more I have been realizing that we will never be able to fully abandon our hearts to God until we are filled with the revelation of how he feels towards us. Beloved, I believe  that revelation begins with us taking a deep and long gaze at the reality that He came down to us, to rescue us because His delight is for us. Only from that place can we begin to love him in a way that He is Worthy of being adored…

Are we going through life without a sense of destiny? I have found myself in that place many times, but I am beginning to learn that my purpose and my destiny are greater than I ever could have imagined! And when I set my heart towards the reality that I was created to bring joy to the heart of an eternal God, and that I am being fashioned to be a suitable partner for His son Jesus, to delight in Him for ages to come…When I REALLY! begin to allow that to penetrate my heart, then the shadows of this life flee away from me. THAT IS THE CHIEF PURPOSE OF MY ENTIRE LIFE! So there you have it… the meaning of life…

photo by: the Twon Schroeder  From the garden till our wedding day!

Free Stuff!!!

Everybody likes free stuff right? I sure know I do, especially when its something of great value. Well for those if you who do not know what The International House of Prayer missions base is, it is a night and day prayer ministry based around David’s tabernacle ( 1 chronic. 23-25). This ministry is designed and called to minister to the Lord and to the community night and day through prayer and worship, and God is raising up alike ministries all over the world in this day and hour to pour out their affection upon the Lord and contend with Him for justice in the earth. Well back in my day:) You used to have to drive to Kansas City just to able to visit the prayer room…not exactly convenient! And then they began to offer it online audio only for a low low price of 10$ a month! Buy Now!… BUT! NOW! Thanks to Gods provision it is all free all the time! FREE! ALL THE TIME! This has been an amazing resource for my heart personally, and it is exciting  to open it up and see that there are people contending for God to break through in the earth,  great to just pop on and soak in when you feel like you just need to rest in His presence. Also let me mention for those of you night owls that the nightwatch is amazing and intense and they are a bunch of folks that go after him late into the night until the day breaks, I have personally been in the prayer room at 3am and it truly is a powerful experience. I share this because I know that if someone else knew where there was free treasure to be found I would certainly hope that they would share the map! HERE IT IS! www.ihop.org there is a link on the bottom of the page where it says PRAYER ROOM LIVE FEED. So TUNE IN! TURN UP THE VOLUME OF YOUR HEARTS! AND DROP OUT TO THE SOUND OF HEAVEN!

Fling wide the gates!

So let me just open this thing up! Danny set this thing up for me, and I have never even used a word processor! So everybody please be patient with me as I am sure all of you out there are chomping at the bit to post something on here…right…